8/31/19

A few pretty photos from 2017.

8/30/19

I went and saw The Rolling Stones with my dad a couple nights ago. It was pretty great. That is probably the last time I'll be able to see them. Tomorrow Mike and I are going to see Alice in Chains. I saw them once before, 8 years ago. I wish I could have when Layne was alive, but that's okay, they were pretty good last time. Then I start my new job a couple days after that. I need to go back to work!!

8/23/19

Pages from my November 2018 scrapbook.

I drank with some friends last night. I wasn't going to drink very much, but then this other couple that I don't really know (besides him being the maintence guy) came over and I felt uncomfortable, like I just couldn't relate to anyone, so of course I drank more. It wasn't too bad though. I didn't get crazy or throw up or anything. I just had a terrible headache at 5 AM, had trouble getting back to sleep for a while. 

So Wednesday was my last day at work, and I start my new job in the beginning of the month. I cried a little bit when I left and walked back to my car. I'm just glad I didn't cry in front of anyone, even though everyone there knows me well enough to know that I did. It's weird that I'm not going back. Everyone seems to think that it's because of this or that, when I really just quit because I need to for myself. I'm never going to feel better about myself if I never step out of my comfort zone and learn something new.

This project

I was going to get to 1,000. The idea was to have some sort of showing, all 1,000 of them covering a wall or something. I made binders, put 100 in each binder. Filled 3 and a half binders. Wrote the number, the date, and my name on the back of them. Then I decided they were stupid and cut a bunch of them up. I saved some that I liked. Mixed them in with all the other papers I had, the stacks of paper I bought at the thrift store and the Wikipedia articles. I think I'll scan more of them.

Crap photos from February

I bought a camera from the thrift store that I'm not very good at using. These pictures aren't good but I kind of like them.

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This canvas I've been unhappy with and painted over multiple times, but I like it just as it is now. 

So I went ahead and just did it, I put my two weeks in yesterday. It's hard to wrap my head around the fact that in two weeks I will leave and never come back. In a good way though! I feel like I'm in control of my life, like I can get out there and do other things if I want to. I'm not saying I'm old, but something about turning 26 this year made me realize that I'm not getting any younger, and that if I don't make an effort to change things in my life they never will. 

Work

One of the pictures from a project I started and never finished, July 2018.

I got called back for another interview tomorrow! I am so excited! I work a very short shift today, I'm not dreading it or looking forward to it, I'm just thinking about this other job. I've gone from 85% sure to 95% sure that I got it, I just want to be 100% so I can put my two weeks in. I've worked at my current job for 7 years. It's time to move on.